Tuesday, July 31, 2012

I've lost that loving feeling

I didn't think this could actually happen. Me? Fall out of love?  But, it has been coming on for a few weeks now.  And, I think I can say that I am not in love with running as much as I used to be.  Or, at least, I should say, as addicted to running as I used to be. 

I have not run any significant distance since the beginning of May, thanks to my lovely IT band.  At first, I was worried I would go into a state of depression.  And, at first, I think I was.  But now,  I have grown accustomed to NOT running.  To finding other ways to exercise.  To searching out new goals, physically, for myself.  And I am happy.  And I am not running. I did not think I could be both at the same time ;)

My husband has even asked my why I think I am so content NOT running right now, when, before I took it really hard. And I think it is because I have hit my major goals already.  I have run two marathons, several half marathons.  There are no races I have planned on and there are none I really want to run right now.  And, I am finally getting more balance back to my exercise routines.

Since, I have all this extra time on my hands, I have given a lot of thought to what I miss and do not miss about running.

First, what I miss:

 - Being able to head out the door for a run. A long run and enjoy being by myself.  Listening to music on my ipod and enjoying nature.

- Getting lost in a run (Not ON a run!)

- Hitting new mileage on a run and feeling a sense of accomplishment.

- And there is nothing like pushing the pace past where you believe you can go!

- The endorphin rush (but the 60 min Insanity workout supplies a large amount of endorphins  . . . . too bad I cannot do that for the next few weeks either . . . long story).

What I do not miss:

- Wearing my Garmin and constantly watching my pace.

- Feeling like I have to run

- Wondering if this run will be the run that I will return from injured

-  Running in the heat

- Running in the cold rain

- Ice baths

- Going to the chiropractor weekly. I spend so much time there when running high mileage that I am probably paying for his kids' college educations!

Will I return to running?  Of course!! I do miss it tons.  But, I am hoping that this running hiatus is teaching me more about balance and learning to enjoy the run more.  And, I am hoping that that balance will lead to less injury.  A girl can dream, can't she?

Friday, July 27, 2012

Seven Quick Takes - The Friday Afternoon Edition

1. I have a good reason for posting late today.  We were at the pool from 8AM until 2 PM.  Yes, 6 hours!  We started at the tennis courts for 2 hours worth of lessons and then headed to the pool for lessons and fun.  It is hot today and the pool water was nice and refreshing.  The boys had lots of fun and so did I!  I bet they will fall asleep quickly tonight!

2.  Olympics!!  I canto wait for them to start today!  I cannot wait to watch the men's and women's marathons!  Go Ryan Hall!! Want to know why I like him so much?  Read this article or watch the video. He calls God his coach. He is an amazing christian and he and his wife started the Steps Foundation. I really hope he medals in London.  My favorite woman marathoner?  Shalane Flanagan.


I have actually lost weight this week!! I am not totally surprised.  I have been eating really well and my workouts are getting more intense and consistent.  I could see a difference from my start photos to my 2 week photos, so overall I  am pleased.  The thing I love the most is that I am getting more and more muscle definition.  Now, about 99% of people would not even notice a difference, but I can see a huge difference in my arms and shoulders.

4.  I tried to run. Really, I did.  Last Sunday I was pumped to try to run again.  Ad I felt great for the first 2 miles.  I could tell I had gotten stronger because I really felt like I was not putting forth much effort.  Then, at about 2.5 miles into the run, my IT band started to hurt. By 3 miles, I was done and my knee and IT band were sore for the rest of the day.  I guess I will not be running again for a while!

5.  Summer is coming to a crashing halt.  We are plunging into school full time, next week.  We have been doing school several days a week most weeks, but it is time to really get back to school and have our days of summer laziness end.  And I think it is best for everyone.  I have noticed the that boys get into more arguments and cause more trouble when they do not have enough to do.  While the lazy days of summer can be nice,  I think everyone is happier when we have a routine and a set schedule.

6. Although we are staring school next week, I am not entirely ready.  I still have weekly plan sheets to set for my oldest.  But, I do have all of our materials, so we are pretty much ready to go!

7. Big plans coming!  I am planning a fundraiser for the Little Flowers Project!!  I am so excited.  Please keep it in your prayers.  Once I have everything finalized, I will be posting here and want to get as many people involved as possible.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Wordless Wednesday

I shared this on Facebook last week, but it is just too good, not to post here. 

Boys, please read carefully! Love, your, mom.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Lessons Learned from Pete the Cat

If you have a younger child, you have probably heard of the Pete the Cat books. There are several; I Love My White Shoes, Rocking in My School Shoes, and Pete the Cat and His Four Groovy Buttons. Watch the below video if you have never heard of Pete the Cat. I bet you will be signing along by the end.

And if you liked that go here and here for the other two! No, really, you have to watch them!!

To give you a synopsis of all of the books, basically things happen to Pete. In adult terms, life happens to Pete. He steps in things, he encounters new, crazy situations, and he loses things. But, the question is asked, "Does Pete cry/worry, etc?" The answer always is, "Goodness No." Because, after all Pete is a cool cat and everything is groovy.

Well, this funky cat got me thinking and I began to wonder if my kids would yell out "Goodness, No." When asked, "Did Mom worry?" Or "Did Mom cry?" or "Did Mom get stressed?" Now, I know that there are times when my kids should see me worry or cry or even get a little stressed, but is that my main mode of operation or am I like Pete the Cat, just strolling along, singing my song?

You see, in all of these books Pete focused on the good things, he did not focus on the one lost button, he sung about the other groovy buttons he still had. When he stepped in things that "ruined" his brand new white shoes, he sung about how he loved his cool new colored shoes. He was thankful for what he had and he was cool with whatever happened.

" . . . because its all good"

I want to be more like Pete the Cat!
(He really is profound for a cat!)

Monday, July 23, 2012

My new favorite gulity pleaure (and its healthy too!!)

I love peanut butter.  I really love it.  I used to eat it, by the spoonfuls, out of the jar.  I love ice cream with peanut butter in it.  Yum.  I love chocolate covered peanut butter.  My favorite are the Reese's Peanut Butter Eggs that come out at Easter time, you know, because they have more peanut butter than the Peanut Butter Cups.

So, I was very excited, when I stumbled upon Bell Plantation PB2 Powdered peanut butter and cholcate powdered peanut butter.  This stuff is truly yummy!!  The nice thing about the powdered peanut butter is that it has only 1.5 grams of fat per 2 TBS serving (compared to 16 grams of fat per 2 TBS serving for all natural peanut butter). 

The powdered peanut butter tastes just like regular peanut butter when reconstituted with water.  It works great in protein cookie recipes and is yummy in protein shakes.  And, as I can atest, be eaten by the spoonful dry! I am really excited to have found this yummy product!  Who knows, it may even help me stay on track for Run With Jess' Weight Loss Challenge!

(I was not paid for this. Bell Plantation did not ask me to write this review . . . . I just love this product!)

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Our Kitchen Remodel was featured on a remodeling blog!!

I am totally shocked, as my blog has never been featured anywhere, but someone must have thought my kitchen remodel post was worthy enough to feature on the Remodel Aholic blog!!  Go check this post out!

Friday, July 20, 2012

Seven Quick Takes

1. Yay! It is Friday!! That means I do not have to be at the pool or tennis courts way too early for the next two days!!  Yes, the boys are nearing the end of the swim team, tennis lesson, and swim lesson cycle.  It is tiring! One more week and we will be done!

2.  J had his last swim meet this past Tuesday.  He just started swim team this summer, and joined weeks late, so he did not make the A team.  But, he won his heat in freestyle at the B meet on Tuesday and was in the lead until the last moment in the backstroke.  I am super proud of him for trying something new and working so hard at it.

3. Weight loss challenge.

What weight loss challenge???  Let's move on  . . .

4. Seriously though, I have still not lost any weight, but I am seeing more definition in my arms and legs.  So, the weight training workouts are paying off!


Still no running.  I am beginning to forget what my running shoes look like.  I am going to a special sports message therapist.  He is amazing.  He told me to give it another two weeks. The problem really is not my IT band, but in my, very tight, glute and hamstring on the same side. He even told me to lay off the weighted squats and lunges!  Really?!? What is a girl to do???

6.  Look at the middle picture in my header, the one with the whole family.  Now, look at this one . . .
Although his "affliction" seems to have switched eyes, he still cannot take a normal picture.  Luckily, I still think he is adorable!

7. One more reason to  love Chick-fil-a.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Long overdue vacation memories

I will not share too many words here.  But want to post some of our vacation photos before I forget we even went!

Writing from a monument on Lexington Green

While on vacation in Cape Cod, my husband's aunt, who lived the Boston area, passed away.  So while we were up there, J wanted to see Lexington green.  It was a nice little trip, although there was not tons to see there.  The green is situated between several very busy roads.  Some of the homes surrounding the green were there during the battle.  There were a few monuments.  But, it was special to know that we were walking on ground where the battle of our nation's freedom began.

The boys with one of their cousins

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Prayers please

For a dear friend and amazing blogger.  Short story: she is 17 weeks pregnant and her water broke.  She is on complete bed rest.  To read the rest go to her blog.

Awesome Novena Website

If you are anything like me, you typically remember that a Novena has started a day late (or read it on someone else's blog that it started) and then, at about day 6, you forget what day you were on.

Well, thanks to another blogger, I found this great website called Pray More Novenas.  All you do is sign up on the site, and sign up to receive reminders about your favorite novenas and the prayers will come to your inbox!

I love it!

Go check it out!

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Weight loss challenge challenges, going back to what works, and where have my running shoes gone?

Weight loss challenge.

I am on week 4 of Run With Jess' Lose a Half Marathon Challenge and, as of today I have lost 0, yes that is a zero, pounds.  Over the last few weeks my weight has fluctuated here and there (up a little on vacation, but right back to my starting weight one day after being home and fully hydrating), but overall it has stayed consistently at where I was this AM.  Which means, something has not been working.

I had totally revamped my diet.  Not only have I continued to stay away from wheat products (95% of the time), but I have also eliminated all grains, starches such as potatoes, and legumes.  And, I think it has been too much for my body.  I have needed some more carbs back in my diet.  Most days, I was left feeling hungry ALL THE TIME.  And as a personal trainer and someone who has studied this stuff, I know that when you are physically active, you need the calories and a good,balanced diet. Simply, I do not think I have been eating enough to allow my metabolism to work at a faster rate.  I counted my calories, loosely over a few days to see if this were true, and sure enough, I have been eating about 400 calories less than what my resting metabolic rate would require (I have had my RMR tested a while ago).  And, since I do not just sit on the couch all day, I am burning way more calories than I am eating.  You would think that is a good thing, right?  But it is not.  After a little, your body adjusts and SLOWS down your metabolism to conserve energy and fat.

So, I have decided to go back to what I know works for me.  And that is the Body for Life/ Eating for Life eating plan.  Instead of regular meals and 2 snacks, I am eating 5-6 similar sized "meals" a day with a good balance of proteins and carbs.  Although I am still not eating wheat, I have added potatoes, legumes and limited grains back and I feel so much better.  I am hoping that is will reflect on the scale too.

And I am weight training more again.  I am weight training more heavily, 3 days a week, instead of 2 days (and they were light as it is).

Step away from the scale

And I am stepping away from the scale.  I have been weighing myself every single morning for the past few weeks.  And it is frustrating.  I know better.  If I had a client who told me that he/she was weighing himself/herself everyday, I would tell that client to stop. Weight fluctuates from day to day.  When you build muscle, you may actually gain weight.  Better indicators are; how your clothes fit, how you feel, and % body fat.  As of this week, I am no longer weighing myself every day.  I have taken "before" pictures and will track my progress every two weeks via photos.  I will weigh in once a week, but that is it.  And, I am no longer focusing on a number on the scale as my goal.  My goal now, is simply gain more muscle and reduce my % body fat.

Is that dust on my running shoes??

I am not running.  And I am not sure when I will get to return to running.  While on vacation, I was so excited to run to the beach.  The first day we were there, I laced up my sneakers and hoped that my IT band would cooperate.  Well, I did make it the 2 miles to the beach, but the 2 miles back were painful.  That run was two weeks ago and I have not attempted running since.  I am not even sure I will try to run again until the fall.  I am headed to a special massage therapist to, hopefully, make my IT band happy.  I am focusing on hip and core strength training.  And, in a month, I may lace up again.  But until then, my running shoes will just have to remain in their spot under the bed.

Some days I inspire myself

This does not happen often.  But yesterday, I was reminded how far I have come and how hard I have worked over the past few years.  I was looking through my old Body for Life Journal from 3 years ago.  I wanted to check out my meal plans then and what I was eating most days.  As I thumbed through, I noticed something I wrote under my daily workout log.  

"Walked about 2 miles today . . . felt great.  I am planning to start running next week.  I think I would really like to run a marathon someday."

It was dated May 17, 2009.  Little did I know that a little over three years later I would have run not just one, but two marathons, and six half marathons.  It reminded me that there are times that I may feel so far from my goals, and am really far from achieving my goals, but I need to keep at it.  That I can reach those goals that seem so unattainable.  With, time and work, I can cross that "finish line!"

Monday, July 9, 2012

Adoption: Where we are at

This is a topic I have avoided blogging about for a while.  Mostly because I have not wanted to share.  But, this blog was not started for the sake of those who happen to read it.  It was started for our family.  I write for myself and those 4 other blessings who I get to share life with.  And I need to write this for me.  To, hopefully, really give it all to God and not hold on anymore.

I am not sure exactly what happened.  Well, I know what happened.  But it was like whiplash.  So fast.  One moment our application is accepted with an adoption agency.  We had the orientation call.  Poured over piles of paperwork.  We were one step away from writing a big check.  About to embark on the journey of bringing home a waiting child from China.

And then we weren't.  All forward action stopped.

We are not adopting.

This is not the place to go into details.  This post is about my feelings about all of this.  Has the desire to adopt gone?  No.  Truth be told, I wish it had gone.  The last few months have been hard.  Really hard.  Most days, it stays below the surface.  But then there are days when God's no seems to stare at me and I cannot avoid it's reality.  And those days hurt.  I have cried a lot over the last few months.  Asking God just for an answer to a simple question.  Why?  Why would the desire to adopt be so strong? Why have I had this desire from before the time I was married, for it to go unfulfilled.  Why?  When my motives, I believe, are not selfish.  Yes, I would love more children.  To hold a baby again.  For the boys to have more siblings.  But more so, my heart breaks when I pray for the orphans around the world.  Children unwanted in the US.  Children, orphaned throughout the world due to poverty, disease, or government policies.  Moms, around the world who are forced to give up their children for one reason or another, who hope that their children are given a chance.  A family.

But, I have not gotten an answer.   I try to remain a woman of hope.  But, I am not hopeful right now.  As much as I have let go, I know I have held on to the desire to adopt a little too tightly, a little too long.  It it time to truly let it go and give it to God.  Knowing He knows my heart and He knows what is best for our family.