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Lord Grant Patience Now, Please!

Patience is not a virtue that I have a lot of. I have grown very patient with my children, but when it comes to other things, I usually do not have much patience. Waiting for answers is hard for me.

I got a call from baby A's cardiologist's office today. The pursuit to get insurance to pay for the very expensive blood test to see if he has Long Qt syndrome is set in motion. The very nice woman on the phone said I should get a call in 2-3 weeks with the final "offer" from insurance. If we agree to pay the rest, we then can have the blood test done. 2-3 weeks???? I was a little surprised at that. I knew that paper work and hoops to jump through can take a while, but I was really envisioning taking baby A this week for the blood test. I was discouraged when I got off the phone.

In an earlier post, I said not knowing was the worst, well, I think this is worse. Now that we have a name to what he could have, and I have read about it, I am quite jumpy. J and K yelling too loud . . . I am afraid it will disturb baby A and cause a fainting spell . . . . baby A cries too much . . . he may faint . . . . keep him in tummy time too long . . . he may faint. Now I know that these fears are completely irrational; the Dr did say that his EKG in the office looked good, but I still worry. I want the blood test done and the results of the 24 hr EKG back so I can have some peace.

Till then, I think God is just trying to teach me some patience. I just pray it comes soon!!


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